AF Day 252

FOB Smart at 1900 - Saturday

If I were home right now I'd either be spending time with my son or wishing I were spending time with my son - likely the former rather than the latter. Since I am not home, I can say that I am about to start a movie (big surprise there), hang out a little bit, speak with Kaesen over the phone or Skype, and call it a night thereafter.

Today it started snowing here at FOB Smart before lunch and it has not stopped since. It is supposed to snow all night and day again tomorrow. It is white nearly everywhere here now. This is nothing like Devils Lake, North Dakota, where my home district with the US Army Corps of Engineers, but it sure is cold and beautiful out. We tried working in the yard relocating materials for two of my construction projects three times today - but the cold and snow got the better of us! We'll give it another shot tomorrow.

What more can I say? All is well and I am content in my thoughts.

Here are two of my recent Facebook posts worth reposting on my blog.

Follow me when you walk through life, your footsteps are my own. Listen to my heart beating through your own heartbeat and be calmed by such a magnificent peace within. Find me when you close your eyes and see me when you open your own. Hear for me when the rain falls and the thunder claps my presence. Fear nothing in life as I am with you always. Know everything in life that is good and loving through my love for you. Feel me when you stroke your hair, when you rest your hands on your chest, when you hold your face in your hands, and when you interlock your fingers – I am with you always. Laugh with me inside and keep my smile alive when you smile. Call my name when your own name is spoken and know that everything you are – I am too… and I am with you always, my dear son.

Every time I close my eyes I see your face again. I think about those days so very long ago and wonder where all the time went and when. It seems like only yesterday we met and I smiled when you said hello. I thought all those years ago that this smile could never leave - and it hasn't even now, you know? Right now I feel alone and empty in this space. I feel alone and it makes me yearn for days again of grace. I guess these tears are warm for a reason though. They ensure that when they’re gone their streaks will stay behind. The streaks of these tears remind me that I am alive for the best of everything we had in mind. It is not the end of the road for me, rather just another new start. It is not the last of the best of me, rather just another chance to reinvent my heart. These warm tears now fill my eyes beyond measure; these cheeks are stained and trembling. But I’ll be damned if I can’t keep this grin on my face from exploding because I know everything is good and never-ending.

143, Kaesen.

Good night and good day.

KT is playing the role of both superhero and Nerf gunslinger!
Taken on 20 Jan 2012

 

KT is bright, I mean bright, and he loves wearing sunglasses, even if they are 3D glasses.
Taken on 20 Jan 2012